lodge. is all i've ever known.

as much as i dont like to admit this. lodge. is all ive ever known. and like. in 10 days. i might be leaving for a government school.

i...
-cant speak sarawakian to save my life. uh kamek. kitak. kimak. ngegeh. diam. yeah useful.
-have. never. been. to. a. government. school.
-i will be going to a school. where i dont know anyone. and i haven't done any of the work (seeing as i'll be joining in the second semester).
-dont know if the teachers are good.
-dont know if it will be as easy to foil the schools system.
-AM FREAKED. BUT SO PSYCHED AT THE SAME TIME.

what if. they dont like me. what if people think im a classic stuck up lodge chick.
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OHMYGOD WHAT IF I *AM* A CLASSIC STUCK UP LODGE CHICK. what if i never stop sounding stupid when i speak bm. what if my pmr results go really really bad. what if i look effing stupid in the uniforms? what if i miss lodge SO BAD.

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what if i like it there.

shockingly. i will miss lodge. very much.