MEMORIES MANNNNg

so many memories and i just know i'm going to forget them T_T
i'm always forgetting shit.
hui: REMEMBER THAT TIME WE BLABLABLABLA
me: we did?
hui: YEAH. =_=
me: ..oh.

i shall write memories that come to mind at the moment. i feel sad because i think i will forget the rest =/
i went through a phase of adding a 'G' to behind my 'mannnnn's (mannnnnG !) thanks to justin, whom i never got to meet up with when he was down in kuching. cb you mannnnnG. and it really pissed azzuddin off haha.

i talked to azz's random new zealand friend (hello claire ~) in german. yes german. actual, translatable german. never knew i spoke german? HAH.

got my ear pierced in the wrong place twice. FUCKERS. =_=

got to know wawa better. went to her 16th party earlier this year and i think there was some lace fetish going around there =/ sleptover with her at karen's place while karen was trashed and laughed as she(karen not wa) puked in the shower. 
sometime much earlier this year, i kept getting random messages from mallek asking me about wa. well turns out my tomato is now dating a tree ! :D

sometime around february (yes, i forgot the date of this occasion =/ )i was texting that jap boy whom all my blog readers would've heard so much about. he was in langkawi that time and it was chinese new year. my aunt's house had no digi reception (so much for 'i will follow you') except for one corner in their kitchen that did. so i stood there for about 2 hours texting said jap guy and smiling giddily to myself. this was roughly how it went..
me: (tomorrow i would be leaving for kl, so the taxi ride would've been very boring) you got to wake up and text me cos otherwise i'd die in the taxi
him: hahaha no.
me: why LOl
him: what would we say
me: ionno lol can ask random questions and stuff
him: like?
me: well if you wake up tomorrow you'll see la =_=
im not sure how the rest went, but it ended with me asking questions that night instead of during the drive in the taxi (which he DID wake up for to text me, though he was tired so i let him go back to sleep. and then _I_ went to sleep too =_=) and one of them was 'would you consider me your girlfriend'.
YES I KNOW SO LAME SO LAME.
but i was petrified. seriously. i put my phone on the kitchen table out of the one-bar digi reception zone and did my panicking ohmygodohmygod thing (looks kinda like a raindance, except instead of chanting, you hear OHMYGODOHMYGOD over and over). eventually picked it up and returned to the reception corner (it really was in a corner of the kitchen so i looked like one of those kids getting punished =_=) and i got replied.
him: i have a feeling you were gonna ask that tomorrow hahah... well yes
my face: =D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D

that was how we started.
i remember sometime that cny, i got a text from him saying that a bunch of houses in langkawi had caught fire and it was really burning up. there were old people and kids standing in the street and crying (and it made me think that whenever we celebrate something, something bad is happening somewhere else =S ) and he was 'im glad youre home and safe'
i refuse to ever let myself forget that. once, *all* the electricity in langkawi cut, leaving him in darkness with his laptop turned on at that shop place, all the bugs flying towards his screen light LOL. why the hell do i remember things like this, seriously =/

he vanished for three months without a word. i was a bitch (more than im willing to say here lol). finally saw him at rainfest and. i think everyone should know more or less how that went =_= he went back to kl, and the next time he came back, he spent Quality Time with my dad (who really liked him lol). and well. now ionno. =/

i suck.

azz went away too. we emailed loads (especially since we couldn't talk properly in msn =_= we really couldn't, all our conversations would die) and i called him about 4 times this year. (i'm the Good Friend in our relationship, hes Bad Friend, haha get it? but seriously. someone -pointed look- never bothered calling even once -next pointed look-) when he came back, i was there at the airport to greet him with un-helium balloons (meaning that instead of floating, they flopped) and a ruined surprise party.
..
it was his own fault =_=
he told me he would be arriving on the NEXT DAY. i had organized everything and had spam messaged all of azz's friends to be there at blabla time, tomorrow. it was all going fine until he texted me on THAT NIGHT saying "BEK IM IN KL NOW !!"
me: cibai.
so yeah, no friends there. thank god my mom is superly nice, she still drove me to the airport on short notice.

this year i went through a mega-camwhorey phase. i've stopped now, and i'm not sure if thats a good thing. sure i have less shots of my ugly face (good) but i have less pictures of our outings and stuff =(
i shall return to my camwhore mode for next saturday ! (my 16th birthday party EHEH. EHEHEHEHEH)

rainfest this year was. so good. i went on saturday and sunday. on saturday, i went with my parents, oh joy. ditched them for a little. karen wanted me to pour beer on someone and i was about to do it but we lost her in the crowd =_=
so we were all happy and dancing, minus emma who was tired or something so she had gone back to her hotel room to practise blowing rings and ordered room service. karen ditched me though, leaving me with dani and nadia.
ended up comforting dani for a bit, dani carried nadia for a bit, we got around to dancing for a bit (hence breaking my resolution to stay absolutely still during rainfest. i apologize for all those subjected to my dancing =/ ), then i got all stalker with nadia.
me: OMG NADIA HE WENT THAT WAY. (thank god nadia is superly nice. best stalker buddy ever) -walks out of crowd looking for him-
me: OMG NADIA HE WENT BACK INTO THE CROWD -walks back into crowd-
me: k, we go dance in that direction k ? -danced in a direction LOl (im not sure how we managed that)-
him: HI MUNCHKIN -walks back out of crowd-
nadia: -laughs-

my efforts are always wasted LOl.
sunday i went with mish, cass and tash. we went to santubong first and chilled at the beach. mish killed a crab =_=
cass and tash wanted to stay at the beach first so mish and i went to the workshops first.
there we saw person i constantly stalk. thank god mish is just as good of a stalker buddy as nadia LOL.
as we walked towards the target (LOL), we passed rafie who was sitting with the girl who was thinking of hiring me as a model ._. yes i spazzed LOL. (didn't get the job though. my face too ugly like camel's dung)
we got to the target and mish made herself scarce. then he was all 'i have something to tell you but i'll tell you later'
me: no tell now.
him: rauth, tell her.
me & rauth: NO.
so i had to wait for later. he met my sinak and aman wanted to jump into the lake =_=
anyway. sunday was also special because ANAK ADI RURUM PERFORMED !!
i was basically waving a plastic bag with many bottles of tuak in one hand, camera in the other, wailing along to them in a language i dont speak =/
then sharon went for her solo !
sharon: Le.
rauth: SHARON I LOVE YOU.
sharon: ..l~eng.
(the "~" indicates a break LOL)
and you know what you guys? i have that on recording LOl (voice recording and if im not mistaken on video too)
i remember the crowd going WHOOO~
sunday was seriously. magic.

cibai this entry is never going to be done in time T_T
shall continue next year. haha.
i'm going to miss the year of james bond lol.

2008.

i'll be working tonight =_=

"You have the star of temporary love luck Xian Chi in your constellation this year, meaning love comes and goes instantly.

The Goats are prone to gossips and arguments this year. Yet, the effects of ‘harming’ are so mild that you can almost disregard them. Your luck would depend more on which season you were born. Apart from that, you actually were in remote union with the luck last year, when you got useful help from people. Such advantage would extend until 6 May, 2008. In other words, you would still get help from powerful people in the whole season of spring.

More ferocious arguments and gossips are likely to break out in Lunar June and November, when you should mind your language and attitude. Other than that, there is nothing to worry about.

In terms of lucky stars, you have Zi Wei and Long De stars, both of which bring powerful people to your help. The two stars always appear together and they would join forces to help the Goats this year. Such powerful help would dissipate a significant portion of the gossips and arguments.

You also have the star Di Jie, means all mishaps would be turned around into good luck. It helps reduce the negative impacts of in auspicious stars."

I've never been more ready.

thinking..

007..
..like driftwood we drifted apart..
..I got a B..
..I got started on making my own money and I'm loving it..
..got caught sneaking out at roughly the same time I got caught LAST year..
.."been partying harder than a 15 year old should"
..learnt about life..
..my best friends performed at an international music festival..
..I got to go to that said festival and watch said friends while drunk..
..experienced magic on 15th July..
..fell in love, got hurt and caused hurt..
..visited an island in the sun..
..gained more stalkers and several friends..
..learnt how to speak up..
..picked up several unhealthy habits..
..when I'm dancing with you, tomorrow doesn't matter..
..was introduced to bobcharlie flouncytoes..
..a year of brown terracotta tiles, fire and Changes with the capital C..
..had a repeat of last year's christmas vodka incident..
..mastered the art of No Sleep..
..got better music xmillion..
..figured out how to work the sack jacket..
..discovered facebook..
..joined dance classes, including a brief stint in ballroom.. (didn't help)
..decided on whom my friends were and where loyalties lay..
..spent Christmas at Karens watching undeniable talent that I wish I could deny (Lol) then at home alone, crying..
..experienced jealousy and uselessness like never before..
..had too much time, alot of shisha andlaughter tears..
..kak wat gave birth to nova lisa..
..dyed my hair.. (didn't help either)
..found out why parents kept telling me that boys were scum..
..climbed a mountain with two of my favorite people..
..got into a little floating piece of plastic to go down a river for five hours and be eaten alive by sandflies just to enjoy the company.. (still haven't blogged bout this yet -_-)
..saw my first shooting star..
..watched an EBF, CBF and BF fight over god knows what.. (while barefoot)
..discovered lodges wireless patch..
..learnt dressmaking.. (badly LOL)
..went into my first serious relationship..
..went into my first long-distance relationship..
..thought things that i could never put to words..
..did so much that i'm struggling to decide which ones to write down.

I'VE LIVED A DREAM.

EHEHEHE

ever wanted something that you could touch, caress, molest, prod, hold, finger AND surf the web with?
I GOT AN IPOD TOUCH !


(i was wondering if these ipods ever feel violated =_=)

quickie.

i have work in 15 minutes.
just saying... 6A's 1B
-sad-

so basically.

469 posts! -makesthat 'woo woo' sound that sounds like a girl going 'woo woo'-

k my blog is turning sucky i velly the solly.
now i will write.

hm i dont know what to write.
=_=

THIS IS SO GAY.
..eventho 'gay' is not a synonym for 'shitty' and saying so makes me a gaysist (?)

landom songs.

my fav: spice girls song...
HOLLER. possibly the best pop song ever.

Nsync song...
Gone. IT IS SUPERLY NICE.

BSB song...
Backstreet's back!! i still remember AGES back at leticias party, i think we were all still in kindy, and we danced to this song HAHAH. and at karen's too. good times man, good times.

Westlife song...
ew westlife blehh. their Uptown Girl cover i guess.

Eminem song...
Superman. LOl. best intro ever, seriously. either that or My Dad's Gone Crazy.

Britney song...
Stronger. its hard for me to decide lol, britney is THA BOMB (sorry =/ )

Xtina song...
CHRISTINA AGUILERA IS NOT IN THE SAME LEAGUE AS THESE PEOPLE, THAT LOWLIFE UGLY CHEAP ANNOYING . thing. sorry my insult ran out of steam =_= anyway. um... i guess Dirrty LOl.

Justin song...
Sexy Back =D
Senorita was good too.

Blink 182 song...
GOING AWAY TO COLLEGE. could die for this song lol.

The Beatles song...
Eleanor Rigby. fucking beautiful -tear-

No Doubt song...
Bathwater. and strangely enough, i only really got into this song after that crazy hair guy (sanjaya was it ?) on american idol sang it LOl.

song cover...
Golden Skans - The Rivers. original by The Klaxons SUCKED. SUCKED SUCKED SUCKED. and the cover is brilliant.

oldies song...
hard to choose =S um... i guess... Delilah - Tom Jones.

karaoke song...
Nothing In This World - Paris Hilton. KARAOKE WAS MADE FOR THIS SONG.

song to drive to...
Drive - Incubus. =_=

feel good song...
I FEEL GOOD LOL. no not really. um. Walking On The Sun - Smashmouth

every occasion song...
Its You, Its Me - Kaskade. perfect for any occasion, except maybe with the exception of funerals. it belongs in winter, in summer, in spring, in fall, when you're emo, when you're happy, when you're single, when you're not single ? , when you wake up, when you sleep, at night, in the day, in town, at the beach, when you shop, when you chill, when you party... PERFECT SONG.

song remix...
Stars Are Blind - Paris Hilton feat. Wisin & Yandel. Its a reggaeton mix. and superly nice eventho mish hates =_=

pop song...
um. ionno lol. The Veronicas are good =/

rock song...
Its so hard to choose for these categories. Fake It - Seether.

dance song...
Glass Danse - The Faint.

rnb song...
Because of You - Ne-Yo

hiphop song...
Shake - Pitbull

REASONS WHY LIN AND BEK...

(too much time, too little work, you get this LOL)

LOVE ALCOHOL.

1. cheap.
2. "HAHA YOU SOUND JUST LIKE SHERK. // ahahahahahahahhahaAHAHAHHAHAHA // ...no funny // ya funny // why // THAT WAS ONLY SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN IN THEORY"
3. finding the above statement very deep, emotional, and compelling.
4. being compelled by that deep, emotional statement to start crying.
5. you get to send SUPER CRYPTIC messages without even trying . i blame phone dictionaries =_=
"drunkie so 70 time afternoon with mish worset last night feel sick // my .heed still isn't attached drivew safe // hong yam // zat phone i don't are steal money you will reply me // why never reply mudds getting alcohol with you again like chacin have my stupid dictionary merrim things up // hate mish mish hot t.t // dying dead not sure who send this to but drunk // kiwi // kiwi cut // emo like french fries // don't hate me plses"
and that was only from one day, only my phone =S
6. "WE JAMMIN! WE... LIKE JAMMIN! WE LIKE JAM TOO !!"
7. ................................................................. cake. -passes out-
8. ".. what? // nononononono you say APA. // ..... apa. // apa apa ?" (my excellent translation of 'what what' =_=)
9. "NGAIIIII TI... // walao you sound like chinese donkey. // WALAO YOU SAY I SOUND LIKE CHINK ASS ?"
10. "EEH YOURE A CANDLE. // hell am i a candle ? // LEE-LIN LOL LILIN LILIN GET ME LILIN ?? // -hysterics- " (this joke only works UI of alcohol)
11. makes the whole world fuzzy. very nice.
12. you are incredibly funny.
13. you do not realize that people are laughing AT you not WITH you.
14. you laugh along.
15. you can listen to AA XXX - Peaches ALL NIGHT LONG. LOL.
16. "i feel sexy // dont worry, youre not // WHY NOT // youre chink. // ....if we were online i'd put that "T dash T" (T-T) sign here // ..why dont you just cry // lazy"
17. "drink more drink more. // wei water or vodka? // drink drink drink !! // ...CIBAI YOU SO CHEAP, ITS WATER ."

LOVE PARIS HILTON.
1. she makes being stupid look good.
2. she is the ultimate icon of AA XXX (=_=)
3. she can afford to buy your friendship.
4. shes actually quite ugly. (hope for us yet !)
5. she brings small boobs back.
6.you'll never end up drinking water by mistake if youre out with her LOL.

HATE BOOKS.
1. firehazard.
2. very challenging to read.
3. very blurry.
4. the mazes always cheat (dont ask =/ )
5. you spend hours reading it, then you get to one part to find that you dont understand the plot at all then you have to backtrack.
6. you forget the book after reading it.
7. expensive. this money can be used to buy vodka. reading too much causes you to buy water and give your friend cheap, fake drinks.

NEED MORE MONEY.
1. so we can get big boobs.
2. so we can get nicer bras to go with big boobs.
3. so we can get nicer clothes to go over the nicer bras and the big boobs.
4. so we can buy our friends too !!
5. so we can buy your mom =_= (sorry. lin put this down. shes LAME LIKE SNAILS LOL)
6. so when we go out we can scream KEEP THE CHANGE really loudly LOL.
7. so we can buy vodka not water .

mawhiuehrwuban

somehow i ended up being your murderer.
i dont want to do this anymore.

so you know, this is what it feels like.

it feels like you were only putting up with me because i was dating him. now that we're over you just can't be fucked anymore can you?
feels like you rather i stay out of the picture. feels like we're all just waiting for it to end on a cordial note as we slowly drift apart to avoid drama. feels like you resent me.
yes im different, cant you accept that?

HEY
WAIT
IVE GOT A NEW COMPLAINT
FOREVER IN DEBT TO YOUR PRICELESS ADVICE.

postsecret names.

"My parents named me after a famous Tahitian beer. I love my name."

LOL.

i want to name them alice from through the looking glass, sirius lee from the HP books and well um hui mian LOl, emma from emma =_=, acid and alkali from form 2 science text books, anna from freaky friday? haha, james for my dad cos im nice, adam from good omens and delilah from strip shows lol.
kids, love me.

,

rock my body, rock my mind, rock me like there's no tomorrow.

a world of broken promises, dreams of ones kept, a petty day, a pretty smile, a thought of you stayed awhile.

caged is my freedom, caged for my sanctity, the irony, the satire, because of what i'll never be.

its a war with rags for flags, painted dolls marching up front, their petticoats, their frills of lace, to burn when the sun goes down.

you do not stop the waves of time for they simply cannot be stopped, with every crash, another day, wondering when you will drown.

feed the birds, an old lady cried, said mother to daughter, do not waste your time, the birds flew on, the old lady stayed, never again to see another day.

what makes a cannibal a cannibal, for is not all meat just meat? what is a soul but an idea, is not a speech but a squeak?

why do we care for the occult, why do we care for mystery, are our lives so empty that we must search for what we'll never see.

the stars are making millions from smiling on our magazines, a child in russia is feeling cold, his money taken by the pigs.

we talk about death like it will never come, we fail to realize, that every moment we spend alive, somewhere in the world, someone dies.

racism is like a circle, it never has a point, for underneath tanned skin, lies blood, lies flesh, lies life.

somebody was someone's mother, that somebody was someone's child, that somebody we may never know, but that somebody was someone's love. 

theres no way to win.

EVERY OPTION I HAVE
ENDS WITH ME LOSING.

too. true.

amen.

5 things i'd never say.

inspired by sharon's blog post.

"stop underestimating me."
"NO."
"you promised. YOU FUCKING PROMISED YES I KNOW THIS IS STUPID AND SUPERFICIAL BUT YOU PROMISED DONT GODDAMN PROMISE IF YOURE NOT GOING TO KEEP IT."
"can you please be sober for once ?"
"lets get married. there's noone else in the world i'd rather be with"

not around.

alots been happening lately ive just not blogged about it. so here it is very briefly.


melissa's birthday, soho.
lots of driving around and cheap booze.
a fight.
daiblo at zat's.
going for burgers at 3am.
walking around hawker stalls barefoot.
listening to random frogs spaz at lodge's park.
getting pulled over and being foreign.
taman sahabat.

so yes, i do have a life.

??

fear not change.
someone said that but i cant remember who.

rauth says:bekah
rauth says:youve changed
rauth says:completely

rauth says: and to me
rauth says: now
rauth says: unfortunately
rauth says: your just begining to seem more and more like bitch
rauth says: no you dont get it..
rauth says: your being stupid
rauth says: and blind
rauth says: okay i dont think you get it..
rauth says: i dont think you'll ever get it..
rauth says: but you have just managed to lose
rauth says: a shit load of friends

emma: well... you have changed alot compared to last year... like i dono how to explain it but yeah... you have. but i still love you either way. / haha. some changes have been for the bad but some good too...

rafie. feeling cared for. says:
you're mroe grown up. thats what I feel.
rafie. feeling cared for. says:
which isnt bad at all.
rafie. feeling cared for. says:
butyour pessimissm could drown mary poppins and tinkerbell in one swoop.
rafie. feeling cared for. says:
as for how you've grown up, it just feels like you have.
rafie. feeling cared for. says:
you're not prone to outburtsts, and you seem more in control of what you want to say, and what you want to keep inside.
rafie. feeling cared for. says:
i'm saying you're hiding alot.
rafie. feeling cared for. says:
you havent changed, in any real sense of the word.
rafie. feeling cared for. says:
you've just grown.

azz mcjingle says:
you have changed
azz mcjingle says:
i derno
azz mcjingle says:
its like. youve changed. you talk abt guys more. and. you dont seem. dunno
azz mcjingle says:
i miss the bekah who was scared to skip school
azz mcjingle says:
i think youre more alcoholic. but that im not sure cz im not back
azz mcjingle says:
you used to be so close to karen as well
azz mcjingle says:
i dunno. i kinda agree with them when they say i dont know you anymore. but thats just cause i havent seen you in MONTHS and i mean. MONTHS

karen:im literally scared to talk to you now
karen:and violent
karen:and you get agitated easily
karen:and i cant talk to you bout my shit no more because you go "so...?"
karen:just that rauths right
karen:and you're distant

have i changed?

?

ive had no mood lately
all the ideas just no mood.
one of these days i shall blog properly again.
slap me..
i need a reason to be mean.

gay.

1. What was your dream when you were a small kid?
to grow up beautiful.

2. What do you do when you're bored?
breathe.

3. What do you wish to have now?
money.

4. How should the world be seen?
as a bleak depressing place full of pointlessness and anguish.

5. What have you realized recently?
that the only person in the world who deserves to live is me. and emma for company so i dont go crazy. and zat for intellectual challenge. and azz and hui to just. be there =_= and mish to inspire me. and some superhott intelligent guy to breed race of superhumans.

6. What is the bad habit that you cannot accept the most?
humanity.

7. When you have something which you are unhappy about, what will you do?
i bitch and get violent.

8. Are you afraid of losing?
yes.

9. Do you think that you feel helpless, or useless sometimes?
no i am da shit.

10. When you meet someone that you like, will you profess or hide your feelings?
tell them but act as if i am joking.

11. List out 3 kind of people you hate the most.
- fake
- braindead
- selfabsorbed

12. What is loneliness?
it does not exist. we just think it does because we are stupid.

13. Are you satisfied with your life now? Do you think any changes should be made?
yes people should all die. except those mentioned above.

14. When was the most recent time you felt touched?
cant remember.

15. Where is the place that you visited and you felt the most beautiful?
london.

16. What are your plans this month?
to change some more.

17. If you have one wish that'll come true, what is it?
people. gone.

18. Do you have anything to worry or to be scared about recently?
no.

19. What quality would you like to see in someone?
genuine-ness. intellect. loyalty.

20. In which situation won't u forgive someone for what he/she has done to you?
many situations.

Tagged Victims:
- fuck that youre supposed to be dead.

ionno blog needs an update so whatever =/

LIST OUT THE TOP 5 PRESENTS YOU WISH FOR:
(a) money. alot of money.
(b) lots and lots of pushpop / starburst / weird chinese preserved fruit / diabetes-causing things
(c) new headphones.
(d) that industrial piercing =_=
(e) MONEY DAMMIT.

LIST OUT THE REASONS FOR YOUR CHOICES:
(a) cos money will allow me to buy all the other things i want and get exactly what i want .
(b) cos diabetes turns me on.
(c) my current headphones had an accident with a sewing machine and now the left side has no sound cb.
(d) cos i dont want to use 120 bux to cause myself pain. so present please !
(e) i do not believe in having too much money.

THE PERSON WHO TAGG-ED YOU IS: azz though he didnt actually say my name =(

5 IMPRESSIONS OF HIM/HER:
(a) gay.
(b) random.
(c) donkey.
(d) nice.
(e) silly. (4/5 aint bad EHEH)

MOST MEMORABLE THINGS HE/SHE HAS DONE FOR YOU: surprising me with the lily allen cd AWWWWWWW.

MOST LOVED INVENTION(does not need to be technologically advance): portable music.

WHAT DO YOU DESPISE THE MOST: music discrimination. not having money. having money and spending it on pointless, pointless things. rude children.

6 PEOPLE YOU WANNA TAG:
(a) azz
(b) because
(c) i
(d) want
(e) him
(f) to talk about me (ok so the spacing didnt work =_=)

i miss...

i miss having skinny legs.
(yes i was wearing pants)
i miss my childhood.
i miss emma.
i miss your voice.
i miss rainforest.
i miss azzuddin.
i miss sleep.
i miss bario.
i miss school.
i miss hui mian.
i miss oz.

T_T

i get bored.

i have always told emma that she was blessed because she looks like she is related to me (you know. good looking EHEH). seriously k we look like sisters. but that blind little bat says "no".
SO HERE I PROVE IT.
i ran a baby picture of me, and a baby picture of her against our pictures AND BOTH SAID WE LOOK EQUALLY ALIKE.
(its not that easy to get exactly half-half like parents btw, i tried this with other pictures. so there. WOW)
IN YOUR FACE, RURAN, WE DO LOOK ALIKE.
proven.

stupid.

WHATEVER.
..this sucks.

on the bright side, 11 DAYS til azz.
happiness just around the corner.

planning.

heh. okay i know there are loads of blogs that go for ages without being updated(emma =_=) and compared to them, that short abandonment of my blog was nothing. but I AM A PERSON WHO CAN UPDATE 426343294863294238 TIMES IN A DAY SO NOW I FEEL LIKE IVE NEGLECTED MY BABY.

so now i spam EHEH.

if i get 7 a's for pmr, here's how i intend to spend my 2000 !
-get that industrial piercing =_=
-dye & straighten hair (or maybe make it wavy. haven't thought this out yet. i want red tho~)
-buy that bag in mng
-get a webcam
-buy new underwear
-claim that sexy 160gb ipod ! (irrelevant to the spending of 2000 =_=)
-buy ipod accessories
-get a good pair of earphones
-I NEED MORE CLOTHES.
-i need a pair of ballet flats. and those awesome stilettos i saw the other day !
-I NEED MORE BAGS.
-keep some money to use in roxy when it finally opens
-hm. ionno.