many questions (still trying to distract self =_=)

No lies.
karen, emma, mish, azz i hit you to fill this in and post too.

got to stop..
1. going for much older guys
2. trying to talk to him
3. being so spazzy.

little-known facts..
1. i am scared of monkeys
2. my first language was BM
3. i grew up wanting to be Mother Teresa, listening to Psalty Bible tapes.

Former secrets (up til now)..
1. i used to be a Yaoi addict
2. i 'believe' in God because of my parents and friends. i dont actually.
3. i didnt really write that 'legolas comes to life' story.

songs that remind me of.. (replace what it reminds you of and the song)
1. childhood: majesty - ron kenoly
2. azz & form2 in general: cruisin' - gweneth paltrow
3. what was so great about him: mystery - brooke fraser

things i really want
1. a new sony ericsson
2. my own personal library with thousands of books
3. a red dress. i dont forget these things.

my life would be so different if..
1. emma & i hadn't gone to dani / sharon's parties
2. i didn't smash eggs in willis' desk & leave themto rot over the weekend
3. i'd never been adopted

far-fetched wishes..
1. to be living in the Old World, before modernization
2. to go back to the New Year. this year's new year.
3. to bethe richest person who ever lived.

fears..
1. im going to be just another nobody
2. that someone's watching everything i do
3. i'll die a very painful death

dreams..
1. to be jamaican
2. to be a critical part of the Great Plan (assuming it does exist) like being the anti-christ or something
3. to understand EVERYTHING in science.

things i would re-do if i could..
1. the new year
2. primary 3
3. that night at sarawak club

strange memories..
1. getting stuck in a tunnel while nadia ran away. and een's yellow mentos =_=
2. the drunk, singing troop of chefs in the paris underground
3. the dinosaur incubator in my wardrobe with karen and sharon. it was never really there.. though they insist it so. and it seemed so real to me too. but it just couldn't be possible. i think that was magic.
you wouldn't understand.

things i'm sorry for..
1. smashing eggs in willis' desk and leaving them there to rot over the weekend
2. my parents always fishing me out of my messes
3. always letting everyone down.

what makes me laugh..
1. ehsan's bad timing
2. burning sheep
3. :[

Things i want to re-live (and change slightly, maybe)..
1. my best christmas ever, 1997. no changes.
2. that day at the airport.
3. bario. no changes.

i keep forgetting..
1. its only been 3 years since i was one of those 'kids' in the 'other' uniform
2. amy's not in malaysia anymore.
3. azz isnt in malaysia anymore either T T

i want to remember forever..
1. uncle jack's attic before it got a make over. and the secret garden while it was in its prime.
2. cliff the dog.
3. backstage wizard of oz.

how i've changed..
1. now i dont sing off my blog posts with 'baibai'
2. i know 8 interesting things to do with cold sprays. maybe more.
3. ive stopped listening to duncan & the donut man. i liked it though... =S

the best years..
1. 1992. im sure it was great.
2. 2004
3. 2006
a close one was 1999

great times with the parents..
1. going fishing for dinner.
2. shooting a rifle.
3. singing kareoke at the seediest place imaginable.. and having fun.

great times with the friends..
1. jamming at the studio with hui mian standing in the corner 'being useful'
2. fireflies~
3. my birthday

other great times
1. drinking at senso with sophia, caris and my dad
2. making the four seasons in english class while Eri yelled.
3. calling out to gibbons with siew yee behind the old lodge building.

greatest accomplishments..
1. taking that picture of the flying pelicans
2. kicking as in my 1500 and getting into interschool
3. the obstacle course at Permai (i rocked) and matthew and i being totally the best at kayaking. well mostly me =_=

best recorded moments..
1. the water video. but seeing as its deleted, the comb bunny vid.
2. me climbing (and getting stuck) on karens wall
3. dancing like fools to public affair with mian and nadia

i miss..
1. the chin-up corner where we used to flip.
2. playing 'hammox and the wild wild west' at my cousins place in kl with barbies
3. watching mish play that demented alice game

to do before death, saying you have one day left..
1. pray for eternal soul, get baptized, confess, read bible.. you know, just in case
2. write letters to everyone close to me, so they'll not forget
3. get wasted with friends. take video. censor off friend's faces. post on blog. dedicate it to lodge.

the most useful things i want to have..
1. a clock that lets you know how much time left until you die
2. a tracker, able to locate anyone anywhere in painful detail. maybe even watch them. NYEH -is a stalker-
3. a digi line with infinite credit.

what i can't do..
1. draw parsley. or draw, in short.
2. swim well. or swim, in short =_=
3. play an accordian. just ask emma

things i can't do but would like to..
1. draw. swim. play the accordian -_-
..
besides that, blow a smoke ring.
2. sing like. a really good singer. mariah maybe?
3. have superpowers -strikes a pose-

insecurities..
1. i think i wont be able to hold an elevator door open when its closing and it'll just clamp my hand. so i've never tried.
2. i look like a man. a formerly fat man who's lost alot of weight. alot. and now has muscly legs from all that weight loss.
3. that everyone secretly hates me and is laughing at me behind my back.

words..
1. ostracise (meaning SHUN~!!)
2. blimbo
3. shexxy

things i've always wanted to do but the occasion never arose..
1. use a fire extinguisher
2. open an elevator while its still moving. i might need help tho =_=
3. break INTO a friends house

i think i'll most likely
1. end up a single mom in a trailer house with no work
2. also with cancer
3. and a bad boob job

i can't stand..
1. un-funny racial jokes. like that thambigele(?) shit that started in primary school and hasnt ended yet =_=
2. black lipstick
3. people who adopt pets just to throw them away.

when bored..
1. i run around the house to music
2. make lists in my book thing. lol.
3. blog =_=

places i have visited and loved..
1. capetown
2. london
3. langkawi

places i want to visit..
1. jamaica. mauritius. seychellse. hawaii. trinidad. etc.
2. bali, but with friends.
3. amsterdam~ lol but with friends too
greenland? heh norway!

what matters most..
1. call me selfish, but i'd say living my life the way i want it
2. family, cos you're stuck with them
3. the environment
#4 would have been friends, jsut fyi. yeah.
im just being honest okay.

what matters less but is still important..
1. good music. FIGHTING THE POP REVOLUTION
2. money
3. keeping an open mind

stupidity is..
1. killing the last two dodos you see on the island
2. mutilating yourself to make a statement
3. modern living.

beauty is..
1. perfect lighting
2. an art
3. forever

life is..
1. a REAL statement
2. many many atoms simply being you without purpose or point.
3. strange

the most important values are..
1. being polite
2. trust
3. optimism

life would be impossible/unbearable without..
1. atoms =_=
2. good music, running space and language
3. beauty

stupid people..
1. dan brown for deliberately causing drama
2. miss irene for a whole year of rubbish
3. most female hollywood celebrities

childhood idols
1. mother teresa
2. aunty nikki
3. the green hedgehog from sonic.

what annoys me..
1. totally spies
2. pop music in general. hiphop/rap in genral too.
3. ignorance.

my tv..
1. heroes
2. antm
3. who's line is it anyway

my bands..
1. foo fighters
2. the used
3. fall out boy

my brands..
1. brands are a waste of money. but i still love them lol. mng~
2. miss sixty
3. but since im so poor, diesel's more my thing -_-

my essentials..
1. essentially, food. =_= besides that, funky eye makeup
2. good music
3. a mirror

my favorite possessions..
1. bobcharlie
2. my awesome music. if that doesnt cout, then my brown handbag. hobo not boho, baby~
3. my grey converses

my songs..
1. no tomorrow - orson MINE
2. uhn tiss - bloodhound gang
3. the take over, the break's over - fall out boy

myself (what you like about yourself)
1. um that im nice? lol. i mean. my awesome music.
2. my awesome music? fine something else.. my muscly legs. its just that noone else likes em =_=
3. my train of thoughts. if only the world knew...

opinion..
1. people try too hard. not enough genuine people in this world to fill a sampan.
2. originality was ripped off.
3. humans managed to single-handedly turn simple things complicated, beautiful things ugly, and fun things mundane.. we ruin things.

embarassing..
1. itried to stop my parents from fighting (i was 7) by standing on the sofa and screaming 'WHAT WOULD JESUS DO!!!"
2. i got 'testube' mixed up with 'testicle'
3. i coughed up a nano.

disgusting..
1. i coughed up a nano.
2. my legs havent been shave this whole week.
3. i had an itch in my nether regions a minute ago. lol. is this the right category?

gods..
1. bob marley
2. henry cavendish. or leonardo da vinci. i think its a tie. lol.
3. peter wentz.
*ahem* 4. myself? lol yeeshus cool aight.

random..
1. my parents debate over my stupidity =_=
2. the canteen people hate me heh
3. i spend an uncomfortable amount of my time trying to think up the perfect suicide.

how i have impacted the world, no matter how small..
1. i saved a litter of puppies on my way to damai.. and still got there an hour before michelle and the others =_=
2. "views: 12,311" yes, 12, 311people now have seen us malaysians do our thing in my cacat american idol video.
3. by runniong over those bario plants, i may have caused a tidal wave. chaos theory yeaaaah~ read up about it.

in the numbers..
1. 1992
2. 69
3. 23

now end by saying something:
we all get touched by magic in our lives. -bek