lol okay to write this entry, i googled 'emo'. I'M SMART LOL I SWEAR. now back to the entry. ~ everyone says they're emo. but noone knows emo. noone knows emo like *i* do. because i'm emo. i live. in so much pain. my life. is so miserable. my interests are the weather, razorblades, watching things die, and smelling like whatever that just died. bathing is a sin. because it washes away dont you understand. i hate the world. i hate you. i hate my parents. i have such a miserable life. i get everything i want. but i hate that. i have friends. whom i hate too. because they always hurt me in the end. NOONE UNDERSTANDS ME. so i cut my wrists. not too deeply though. and then i tell the whole world about it. i cut my wrists today. i didnt do it for the attention. see, you dont understand me either. I DID IT. BECAUSE. OF THE PAIN. IT IS BOTTLED UP INSIDE ME. I HATE THE WORLD I HATE YOU I HATE LIFE. i want to die. but i wont actually commit suicide. because i act hardcore. but we all know my balls fell off the second i dyed my hair black, straightened it down over my face, and brought back grease. the only one who understands me is my diary. MY DIARY WILL NEVER BETRAY ME. my girlfriend dumped me because she said she already had a pussy and didnt need another one. my boyfriend dumped me because he found out about the girlfriend. i dont know what i am. you see, with us emos, the girls got dicks and the guys got no balls. we are One. we do not need genders to Discriminate us. that way we can make out with whoever we want. but those who we want wont make out with us. so we settle for all the other emo kids left out there and pretend that the really hot ones are Just Too Shallow. unlike me. because i'm so deep. since im emo and i'm against everything. i hate nature, it is a waste of space. i wont eat meat because it came from a Living Creature (which i like watching die anyway) i am an Anarchist. I have a Cause. because of that i must never ever smile. if i do. i should die. i hate you. you smile. you are shallow. go drown. in my sorrows.
then i came up with many.
many.
pictures looking like..
THIS..
turned out genius me had typed emu by mistake.
(plus it gives my hair that amazing greasy effect naturally)
when *i* use the term, however, it is perfectly alright, because in my case, i am just plain lazy to type emotional. heh. i am allowed to do so. becasue i am hotter than you.
and being emo. is. not. hot. but black nails are hot. even though emo assholes have black nails. know why black nails are hot? because black nails are My Thing. but being emo. is. not. hot.
this post was inspired by the blog of an actual person which i came upon secara random while surfing net. she called it 'cutting; her anti-drug'. i'd rather be on drugs thanks. she acts so hard core, life sucks, oh look at me, i have a good life but i shall mope and whinge about everything -_- here is an extract from that blog... (everything in italic was written by her. in red are my comments. cos red and black are the colors of MY SOUL. whichnooneunderstands =S )
"Interests: witchcraft-burning things-dancing around in my underwear-boyz-eyeliner-friends-trees-thunder-lightning-rain(hence i say emo people are very interested in weather)-writing-poetry-journals-being myself-hats-blood-music-razorblades(arent razorblades the most interesting things ever?)-crying-emo boys(why. -_-)-books-bleeding-rings-necklaces-black-bracelets-dragons-certain drugs(and i thought cutting was her antidrug)-bleeding(lol sounds like she likes her period)-boyz in girl pants(LOL SEE THEY DONT GOT BALLS//GOT PENISES)...or just..boyz haha-reading-making fun of popstarz-sex and don't forget the violence(she made this song lose some of its appeal for me)-fresh prince of belair-sleeping-making out-being hollow(if all else fails, she'll make a great drum)-hating myself for certain reasons(-_-)-corrupting america's youth(-______-)-dancing-movies-playing with things like matches(that was so first grade)-hurting myself to kno that i'm alive(no comment)-music like: slipknot-koRn-marilyn manson is hawt!-kittie-backstreet boyz(LMAO)-spice girls-nirvana-fall out boy-godssmack-system of a down-avril lavigne-blink 182-senses fail-orgy-underoath-atreyu-godsmack-MCR-greenday-gob-HIM-and more. that's it. u don't like it? fuck you..and u kno where the door is.(its a blog. what door)
Expertise: i'm a witch(AND IM GOD)"
"today was a horrible day!! hatred! betrayal! my heart shattered!!"
"The Sharp edge of a razor
cuts deep into my skin
im such a total loser
to be doing this again.
I know that this is wrong
but i dont feel any pain
for i've kept it in for far to long
living a life of shame.
One cut after another
ive decided not to stop
but then i think of my bruther
then the razor drops
There is blood all over
its gonna scar a ton
my self esteem in lower
oh God, wut have i done??!!"
that was just so stupid i have nothing to say.
"yea. sorry i haven't updated in such a long time...but yea. omfg reno asked me back out...i don't think i should go back out w/ him. idk y tho. OMFG! my dad said that we might be moving up north next year! i don't want to! i have so0o0o0o0o0 many friendz here!!! i don't wanna fucking move! i yelled at my dad. i was like screw that! i'm not moving. i'll move in with one of my friendz! and he's like, NOBODY IS MOVING IN WITH ANYBODY then i was like watch me! and i slammed my door. T_T"
ahem. firstly, what decent parent would let their teenage daughter move in with one of her friends. -_- and she has so many friends who hate her/she hates/dont care about her/make her life such a living hell that she doesnt want to move. -____-
ugh its kinda. you know. irritating. but like funny haha. it makes me glad i grew up in Malaysia heh.
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