sweats.

i only have one picture from new year's and its this one...



=_=
zat, if youre reading this, send me pictures.

16 on sunday !

k imma be sweet 16 this sunday !!
AHAHAHAHAHHA
so guess what ?
HERE'S MY PRESENT LIST !!

1. A PHONE EHEH.
i love the w580i but because ive been getting really tech-picky lately (in most-wanted order),N81, N95 (both in the 8gb version lol), or some random sexy motorola/samsung/lg(? nah maybe not lg)

2. CANDEHH !
nougat ! those super nice imported ones like lemon sherbet and stuff ! jelly worms (the nice ones =_=) ! STARBURST !! PUSHPOP !! licorice from the airport !

3. FOOD.
because i am starving. i want laksa lOL. um and indomie =_= (see, you dont have to sell your children to buy things for me LOl) those weird hello panda biscuits that are superly expensive for. biscuits =_= oH AND FAMOUS AMOS, BUT THE FRESH ONES FROM THE AIRPORT, NONE OF THAT BOXED CRAP and um sour cream and chives pasta lol can get those instant microwave packets of this heh. waffles ! and pizza ! i think i should shut up about food =/

4. LIQUOR.
wow 3 categories dedicated to the edible. TUAK !! a bottle of kahluas or absolut vodka (the peach one) would be very much appreciated too. OR IF YOU REALLY LOVE ME, ABSINTHE LOL.

5. A SPONSORED PIERCING.
i don't want to have to spend 120 bux on impaling my ear so if a kind soul out there would sponsor my industrial piercing, you have my eternal love.

6. tECHY STUFF.
bobcharlie's underwater case. but its damn expensive T_T that 160gb ipod that i sidetracked from buying =_= and uh REALLY GOOD HEADPHONES YEAH !

7. THE FOO FIGHTERS IN CONCERT.
or i will kill both of us -threatening look-

8. RANDOM BODYSHOP STUFF.
like the bodybutter, the cocoa one cos it smells so purdy. makes me hungry.
which reminds me. i want chocolate cake in that food list LOL.

9. UNDERWEAR.
because i am poor and have never worn a pair before.

10. MISCELLENEOUS (did i spell that right)
sunnies ~ handbags ! pretty accessories ! (must be pretty =_=) black nailpolish (for the broke LOL) sponsored haircut & dye !

11. FIREWORKS.

in exchange for my eternal love ? ._.

a few resolutions

sorry for the spam.
anyway. a few resolutions for 2008...
1. give up smoking for good.
2. make up my mind.
3. go lose that random layer of flab I have ( its not cool to be flabby and flat) and work out.
4. run for mssm again.
5. get used to govt school.
6. start to sleep early and regularly.
7. decide on the rest of my resolutions

thank you :D

this ranks as one of my best newyears ever !!
party with Sarah, zat, pete, Anthony (oh ye very wasted) and terry. good shit.
happy 2008

MEMORIES MANNNNg

so many memories and i just know i'm going to forget them T_T
i'm always forgetting shit.
hui: REMEMBER THAT TIME WE BLABLABLABLA
me: we did?
hui: YEAH. =_=
me: ..oh.

i shall write memories that come to mind at the moment. i feel sad because i think i will forget the rest =/
i went through a phase of adding a 'G' to behind my 'mannnnn's (mannnnnG !) thanks to justin, whom i never got to meet up with when he was down in kuching. cb you mannnnnG. and it really pissed azzuddin off haha.

i talked to azz's random new zealand friend (hello claire ~) in german. yes german. actual, translatable german. never knew i spoke german? HAH.

got my ear pierced in the wrong place twice. FUCKERS. =_=

got to know wawa better. went to her 16th party earlier this year and i think there was some lace fetish going around there =/ sleptover with her at karen's place while karen was trashed and laughed as she(karen not wa) puked in the shower. 
sometime much earlier this year, i kept getting random messages from mallek asking me about wa. well turns out my tomato is now dating a tree ! :D

sometime around february (yes, i forgot the date of this occasion =/ )i was texting that jap boy whom all my blog readers would've heard so much about. he was in langkawi that time and it was chinese new year. my aunt's house had no digi reception (so much for 'i will follow you') except for one corner in their kitchen that did. so i stood there for about 2 hours texting said jap guy and smiling giddily to myself. this was roughly how it went..
me: (tomorrow i would be leaving for kl, so the taxi ride would've been very boring) you got to wake up and text me cos otherwise i'd die in the taxi
him: hahaha no.
me: why LOl
him: what would we say
me: ionno lol can ask random questions and stuff
him: like?
me: well if you wake up tomorrow you'll see la =_=
im not sure how the rest went, but it ended with me asking questions that night instead of during the drive in the taxi (which he DID wake up for to text me, though he was tired so i let him go back to sleep. and then _I_ went to sleep too =_=) and one of them was 'would you consider me your girlfriend'.
YES I KNOW SO LAME SO LAME.
but i was petrified. seriously. i put my phone on the kitchen table out of the one-bar digi reception zone and did my panicking ohmygodohmygod thing (looks kinda like a raindance, except instead of chanting, you hear OHMYGODOHMYGOD over and over). eventually picked it up and returned to the reception corner (it really was in a corner of the kitchen so i looked like one of those kids getting punished =_=) and i got replied.
him: i have a feeling you were gonna ask that tomorrow hahah... well yes
my face: =D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D=D

that was how we started.
i remember sometime that cny, i got a text from him saying that a bunch of houses in langkawi had caught fire and it was really burning up. there were old people and kids standing in the street and crying (and it made me think that whenever we celebrate something, something bad is happening somewhere else =S ) and he was 'im glad youre home and safe'
i refuse to ever let myself forget that. once, *all* the electricity in langkawi cut, leaving him in darkness with his laptop turned on at that shop place, all the bugs flying towards his screen light LOL. why the hell do i remember things like this, seriously =/

he vanished for three months without a word. i was a bitch (more than im willing to say here lol). finally saw him at rainfest and. i think everyone should know more or less how that went =_= he went back to kl, and the next time he came back, he spent Quality Time with my dad (who really liked him lol). and well. now ionno. =/

i suck.

azz went away too. we emailed loads (especially since we couldn't talk properly in msn =_= we really couldn't, all our conversations would die) and i called him about 4 times this year. (i'm the Good Friend in our relationship, hes Bad Friend, haha get it? but seriously. someone -pointed look- never bothered calling even once -next pointed look-) when he came back, i was there at the airport to greet him with un-helium balloons (meaning that instead of floating, they flopped) and a ruined surprise party.
..
it was his own fault =_=
he told me he would be arriving on the NEXT DAY. i had organized everything and had spam messaged all of azz's friends to be there at blabla time, tomorrow. it was all going fine until he texted me on THAT NIGHT saying "BEK IM IN KL NOW !!"
me: cibai.
so yeah, no friends there. thank god my mom is superly nice, she still drove me to the airport on short notice.

this year i went through a mega-camwhorey phase. i've stopped now, and i'm not sure if thats a good thing. sure i have less shots of my ugly face (good) but i have less pictures of our outings and stuff =(
i shall return to my camwhore mode for next saturday ! (my 16th birthday party EHEH. EHEHEHEHEH)

rainfest this year was. so good. i went on saturday and sunday. on saturday, i went with my parents, oh joy. ditched them for a little. karen wanted me to pour beer on someone and i was about to do it but we lost her in the crowd =_=
so we were all happy and dancing, minus emma who was tired or something so she had gone back to her hotel room to practise blowing rings and ordered room service. karen ditched me though, leaving me with dani and nadia.
ended up comforting dani for a bit, dani carried nadia for a bit, we got around to dancing for a bit (hence breaking my resolution to stay absolutely still during rainfest. i apologize for all those subjected to my dancing =/ ), then i got all stalker with nadia.
me: OMG NADIA HE WENT THAT WAY. (thank god nadia is superly nice. best stalker buddy ever) -walks out of crowd looking for him-
me: OMG NADIA HE WENT BACK INTO THE CROWD -walks back into crowd-
me: k, we go dance in that direction k ? -danced in a direction LOl (im not sure how we managed that)-
him: HI MUNCHKIN -walks back out of crowd-
nadia: -laughs-

my efforts are always wasted LOl.
sunday i went with mish, cass and tash. we went to santubong first and chilled at the beach. mish killed a crab =_=
cass and tash wanted to stay at the beach first so mish and i went to the workshops first.
there we saw person i constantly stalk. thank god mish is just as good of a stalker buddy as nadia LOL.
as we walked towards the target (LOL), we passed rafie who was sitting with the girl who was thinking of hiring me as a model ._. yes i spazzed LOL. (didn't get the job though. my face too ugly like camel's dung)
we got to the target and mish made herself scarce. then he was all 'i have something to tell you but i'll tell you later'
me: no tell now.
him: rauth, tell her.
me & rauth: NO.
so i had to wait for later. he met my sinak and aman wanted to jump into the lake =_=
anyway. sunday was also special because ANAK ADI RURUM PERFORMED !!
i was basically waving a plastic bag with many bottles of tuak in one hand, camera in the other, wailing along to them in a language i dont speak =/
then sharon went for her solo !
sharon: Le.
rauth: SHARON I LOVE YOU.
sharon: ..l~eng.
(the "~" indicates a break LOL)
and you know what you guys? i have that on recording LOl (voice recording and if im not mistaken on video too)
i remember the crowd going WHOOO~
sunday was seriously. magic.

cibai this entry is never going to be done in time T_T
shall continue next year. haha.
i'm going to miss the year of james bond lol.